All Along the Horizons
searching, learning, experiencing, living, loving...
most of these were done on my iphone and i never corrected spelling or checked capitalization or grammar etc
so… your excuses please
Captivating my soul
Love that never sways
A veluptous entwiening of
Body mind and heart
Oh,Grace oh mercy
One greater above myself
I’m forever indebted
Your glory masterful flawless
A beauty like no other
A never ending spectrum
Oh father you are good
Oh faithful father you above all others
Are in essance holy before you we bow
Oh lord we call to you father for our crimes agaisnt you
Oh father my heart is merely a vessel of your will god consume with a fire my
Whole being that my impurities leave me forever and you above all others are glorified
Oh lord
How u make me writhe under
Your loving embrace, so warm and snug
A love that also perfects,
U wring out every last drop of blood
And set my fleash on fire
But in ur love U replace mine with your own Only to release my spirit to be one with you Oh lord
How Your holyness moves me draws me near you demand my life that I humbly give thank you god
born under a dark sky
decending, deeper, deeper,
into the shadows, reaching out,
searching for the tightest crevice in which to house my decreped soul, ( a shimmer in the distance)
time slithered past, (brighter closer)
aimlessly trudgeing through the night
(something began to draw me)
vices deathgrip on mind & heart
(manifesting glowing)
stumbling, falling, crawling, ( a flame burning)
tired, dieing (reaching out)
fading ( caught!)
reviving…(OH! the light!)
crawling, standing, walking…
effervescent illuminated world!
my true calling…
Awake awake
I am stirred from deep slumber
My love my lord calls my name
I rise and go about my way
Yet still to him I pray
Joy oh joy in heart
Wat a beautiful day it is to b alive
So much to b grateful for
So much to do
And all of this I do with you
And all of this I do for you
I proclaim my love
Presumptuously I wait for ur call, dear lord, I pour out my heart to u day after day, I voice my concerns, all to u my father, u sustain me at all times, but still my pride holds me, u answer my prayers but not how I expect, plz father break me and my stupid expectations, u r an infinite god
I’m the murderer, with my cross to bear, I move in silence, I act alone, spare me pity, spare me from your woes, I am the murderer! I’m in despair! While I wonder time is endless, day to day year to year, u will never find nor hear me… I am the murderer, with my cross to bear, yet I walk with joy, I act in love, I have no need of pity, and I own no woes, I am the murderer… While I wonder in eternity, all will see and hear of YOU
We walk together hand in hand, I try and meander but u keep me straight, my lord my love, keep me close, and in your fulness, I need your sustinance, and still you pull your hand from mine from time to time, but I try and keep my mind on the divine, amidst the depression and the strife, I know this is more than feeling and yet I yearn for that small and subtle embrace, I wish that I wasn’t subject to this lesson, i would prefer not even a second, but I know your reason and I know your rhyme, but plz put ur hand back in mine
I lay my head for a time of peace but there is none in sight as I reflect on my actions my words my heart… I’m filthy I choose to b filthy… But I don’t want it I can’t take it anymore, I thrash about crying out for relief… I can feel the blemishes on my heart… God is there no end in sight? It goes and comes as it pleases, I beg for purity but the suffering doesn’t end…
Let the angels speak over ur life, don’t let ur mind stray to the dark place, focus on the beauty and the blessing, don’t focus on the dark things, there is so much to see so much to breathe so much to live, stay away from the grave, let the angels song guide u, don’t let the evil things distract u, u have a heart that beats in ur chest it’s ur only one to give, keep ur heart from the poison, lift all u have to the one that truely cares, grab the devil by the horns and bury his face in the ground, light will always triumph
A lovly day, a slight breeze with a hint of chill, the sun beams in radiance over head, the trees stand firm and the grass waves it’s green skin in the wind, The smells of heaven abound the air, such a lovly day…
I’m in touch, I can feel the focus, there is so much creativity flowing in this mind, there is love pouring out here, there are wonderous works here, I have a gift, and I’ll use it, with the one who gave it guiding my touch, I’ll use
It, to tell of his fullness
Just imagine the most beautiful
morning you walk out side and it’s slightly chilly and you feel the wind almost piercing your skin then you look out over a big sprawling lake, with it’s naturally flowing waves going in and out so peacefully and you can see the monsterous towering trees just grasping towards the sky and then you realize that beautiful life giving star rising over it all and you realize how amazing life is
There is a strength that burns within our hearts it purifies our bodies our minds and our souls, our love is a stone bridge that crosses these waters that try to sink us but we stand tall, our love is like a forest that has stood the trials of a thousand ages and is so firmly and deeply rooted it’s natural bond to this soil will never be broken
Carry me home
Understand that I’m confused, understand that I’m hurt,
Understand that I am sick,
Remember that you have hope for me,
Remember that you have faith in me,
Remember how much you love me,
I feel like I’ve given my everything
This time passes so slowly it seems
My battles I constantly lose they weigh on me,
But wat of our victories do they mean nothing? We’ve come so far in such a short time and time is just a number in this endless waltz so come to me and let me help you,
I’m so tired I hardly sleep I think it’s time… Carry me home
I’ll carry you home
Will you go?
Ride over this hill,
And look at this war
Merciless and unforgiving
worthy and honor driven
Ride into this battle
Head first, brave and ready
Fight on, through grief and agony
This wont end until your time is up
But knight you have your guide and you have your arsenal, so will you go? Will you fight for your transformation?
a knife found in your side brings you to your knees, you call for help but it’s stifled by your own screams, you lay there convulsing in pain, slowly you reach for the handle, and you carefully slide the metal assailant out, and a jolt of pain followed by more of your own screams, finally brings some relief, as you begin to mend your wound, you will bare the scars…
The earth begins to rumble, shaking the foundations of an otherwise serene surrounding, amidst the swaying, slowly a crack reams through the surface of the ground, and now rushing over the land is a heavy mass of boulders, ice, and snow, with helpless vegetation and countless animals turned victim being consumed and overcome by the magnitude of the tumbling surface, there seems no relief for the entombed mountain and valley below, except the sun now revealed through the clouds, beams it’s warmth to the landscape, bringing about a transformation, water begins to trickle down the valley, lightly afflicted victims begin to burst forth from their states, and a new life begins to gleam in this once again peaceful setting, and the sun continues to overwhelm the cold, a drastic metamorphosis has befallen this place
Walking, feeling each step of the way, searching frantically for a door, in a long stretch of ominous hallway….dark and silent, my stomach tosses and churns as the distance I’ve traversed grows, which way it takes me next I’ll cant ever know, I fumble along, struggling to keep my balance, continuing to trudge deeper into this maze, i can’t help but think when will my way out come?
Our chains are breaking
And our wings are sprouting
Will we be free
We will shine brighter
And we will fly
We will be free
We will be free
And it will be glorious
We are free
lighting strikes the nearby ground causing my nerves to tense and my body violently shakes even when at rest, a whirlwind begins to sweep this mind of mine away, a tidal wave of emotion threatens to tear its way from chest, a mountain of sorrow descends upon my heart, and the rains flood the land and carry me away, but when the storm ends… I will rise again!
Like the moon on a unique night
Gently piercing the sky
You softly and precisely pierce my heart, my soul begins to contort under the warm healing touch of the very tip of your finger so slight but so full of the overwhelming love that defines how you care for me with such esteem, I am marred by the light now pouring into me, forever I will remember this experience with you
Is it that I’m over you? See you from a distance, and not second thought passes through my mind, it’s done right? I can move on? Who am I kidding? Even the thought of you makes me shiver to the core… You get in my life anyway you can, to tear me down, it’s like a sickness strikes me in bones and sows the seed of strife into my blood as it courses through my Now shaking body, all hope dwindles out of my mind and heart, your stigma is far reaching, smothering the flame of my soul, darkening everything around me as I struggle to stand, hear, and see life around me, but I’ll continue to cut you out like a reoccurring cancer, this is no joke, there is no future here, there is no hope here, find your satisfaction somewhere else, because I won’t house this poison anymore, it’s already caused me so much pain, it’s already cost me so much, well I tell you never will I make the same mistake, so go out and find another suitable corpse, cus this one chooses life over death
As I walk through the barren lands of past times I can’t help but want to see them burn away… So I set fire to the towers that stand in these places and watch my old places of worship smolder to ashes…. For I am free, and i will walk on because I have found the green hills that last forever
Grace is a wind that never ceases, it flows past you as you resist it, but finally I am caught up in it, floating weightlessly in it’s current, I feel my heart lightening its load and the wind begins to carry me to new lands and far off places, but ultimately it will carry me home
It seems as though each day is a new millennia, having it’s own celebrated sloppy birth, to an adventurous existence of riding each of life’s waves that is thrown at it from subtle beginning, rapid drawing, continuous powerful building, its frightening crescendo, to the crashing fall, and into the bubbly rolling end, each day holding a different looking looming ocean of events, and after the water calms and everything dwindles to a close almost as if to settle the dirt on a fresh grave, that millennia comes to pass on into eternity…
I once stood on a hill, I was worn tired and cold, I stood not alone, beyond the clear sky, i stared far above the earth, deep into the vacuum that we call space, my broken heart yearned for a touch, my brokenness was beyond me the struggles had broken me down, but still hope shown in those stars that night, and so I stood, I waited for streaks and flashes to pierce the sky, a delightful warm embrace came to my heart, a pin prick, finally the lights shown above, as I shouted with eternal joy, a thought came to my mind, a cold and weary existence must be restored and reborn to bring forth life again, those subtle signs I saw in the sky that night…
The dust floats unsettled, gliding with the breeze, and fluttering in the gusts, helpless and misguided the dust thrashes about constantly caught up in the twists and turns, ups and downs of it’s daily existence, but a presence draws near, hand out-stretched, eagerly reaching to catch and tenderly hold close the seemingly insignificant dust, as the hand closes around the particles and lifts them to his firm vibrant pulsing chest he gently whispers then breaths brilliant eternal life that only he can into the dust once again
And I’m starting to see, what will never happen for me, as I walk through each of these dreams, time floods past my eyes, every second tears at my health, every day wears at my mind, each week looks so bleak, each month looks so wrought, and every passing year brings yet another fear, this horror will never end, unless I ride on hope, it will carry me on its anchor, as I pass further into dreams, as I sink deeper and deeper in to my sleep, my dreams will birth life, my dreams will set me free…
